Friday found out three of my coworkers are not coming back. And now today another coworker’s last day is Friday!
See, these people are not just my “coworkers” they have become my friends. My good friends! for the most part :)
It’s very bitter sweet and it’s got me thinking a lot too. What do I want to do next? I have an idea… and I will put more into it to make it happen.
Some more of me spitting out my thoughts before I go back into the zone/pitching:
On my lunch break I walked over to CarMax in search of a car I have wanted for a while now: best part is I know exactly what I want - BMW 328 i 2D Convertible either silver or black..
To be honest, and don’t laugh at me, It took me a while to get out of my car and walk over.
I was scared for some reason. But I gathered up my emotions and walked over… slowly.. past Home Depot’s pretty yellow and orange flowers… when all of a sudden a girl (teenager - I want to say about 17 or 18 yrs old with pretty pink highlights) stopped me and asked which way the mall was.
She also told me she was looking for work. She seemed very discouraged/lost.
I felt like I understood her completely at the moment, and that’s when I told her about my search for a new car.
She asked me if I was a college student, I told her I work for Ridiculousness / MTV / Rob Dyrdek? .. she had no clue.. (I thought that was funny) but anyway.. I walked her to the corner of the street, she wished me good luck, as I did to her, we parted and went our separate ways.
We all have big steps we want/need to take, but it takes baby steps to get there.
New beginnings all around me. I love it. Change is always good, yet bitter sweet..
Peace & Love
just me, music & me
pouring my heart out, there’s no one in sight, & there doesn’t need to be.
I’m now really signing off for the day.
Peace & Love
I’d rather say I genuinely care than I’m “too nice.”
Truth is, if I cared for you once, chances are I always will… no matter what.
Peace & Love
I find myself giving advice to my girlfriends left & right lately. Feels good. But not only that, I’m listening to them & I hear me in their words - which helps me laugh off my own mini situations that do not amount to anything.
Point of the story is, LIFE GOES ON. Love today & just fuckin’ enjoy yourself. I know I am, so you should too.
bedroom window open, cool breeze rushing in, mini vanilla candles lit, Pretty Lights on shuffle all the while I write my thoughts & ideas down
I just did & it felt good.
I’m not one to give up. If I want something bad enough, I will get it, or I will try my best to get to it… (fuck, I can’t always win) and I do believe in hope.
People tell me Tina, open up your eyes, that’s false hope!!!! ..but if you ask me, there is no such thing as false hope if* you feel it otherwise in your gut.
So what I’m trying to say is, it’s good to listen to what others have to say, open your mind, soak it in but also, just go with your gut because at the end of the day, it’s YOUR life. YOU are in control and YOU know best.
I say this to myself all the time, and I rarely follow it! HA! No, but seriously I’ve gotten better.. it’s true. My gut has always been correct.
And hey, sometimes we’re in the moment and we don’t listen to our gut, that’s okay, we’re all human and we’re learning as we go…. live life that is.
I told my boss earlier today that I’m spreading myself too thin lately… something’s gotta give.. sure enough, tonight it did.. everything is ok now, but it’s another sleepless night in the valley for me.
Tomorrow is another day.
Peace & love
may seem dumb or another unthoughtful title to some, but it makes perfect sense and also means the following to me:
let’s do this
we’re goin’ in
don’t be afraid
you’re not alone
what does this have to do with me predominantly re-blogging beautiful photos/fashion/art posts, I have no idea, but it just came to me on my drive home tonight and it may inspire me to blog some of my random day to day stories more often.
until next time, peace & love